I will no longer be updating Forgotten Lost Angel.

I will not be making any post until someone request that i do so, because I am not sure if anybody still checks this site.
just tag the request on my tag board.
-K-

Today is Jason's Birthday [ out third guitarist ]

Happy Birthday Jason!

i know...u probably don't go online...but i'm puttig it up anyways...
*sigh*

and ummm...
well...congrats Jasam! i'm glad u had "a Blast" at the Pageant ^__^
Really! ^__^

well...umm..
ahhh
Jason might go to Corvette Diner with Julian and his father...but who knows right?
...tomorrow is thansgiving.
Happy Turkey day to everyone!
i hope...everyone has fun.

would you like to know the things i'm grateful for?
well...
i don't feel like putting it down.
[ too long ^_~ ]

well...bye

I Don't know what to post and i don't know what to say...
The awkward beginning has already begun. I don't know how i'm suppose to approach everything. I just feel like being away from it all, But i know what i have to do.
And now...my "time limit" has begun...the clock is ticking. I have to hurry.
Haste will not make me any younger but it will get me where I want to be much quicker.

What's going to be the ending product of all my work? i don't know.
would it matter? maybe...

I hate being alone...it makes me think so much.



I hate being alone.

Tomorrow [ Today ] we're going to a show...
we're going to watch Haste The Day and Scary Kids Scaring Kids

it should be fun...since everyone is going.

and umm...thats all.

XD

she looked soo beautiful today! [ why don't i ever tell her?! XD ]
maan...it felt like i hadn't seen her in the longest.
...it felt good just walking by her side...i couldn't really ask for more. i'll keep the rest of the details to myself.

i haven't really got much to say except that.
oh and i don't recommend the movie/anime Ninja Scroll.

thats all

always

"K"

[ nothing is bothering me ]

[ Cafe Night ]

First of all i would like to thank Straight-Gay-Alliance for giving us the opportunity to perform last night and would like acknoledge all the bands that performed along side us as well. thanx everyone!. The Gig was better than expected.
and the brownies were teh Shit! XD ( Courtesy of Sara Lee's mother/ and GSA ) they were super delicious!

...were do i begin? hmmm.ok ^_^ i know.
after school yesterday [ i know i'm keeping u all in suspense ]
i saw "HER". [ i know what ur thinking..."oh god...he's going to start talking about "HER" ...damn it! XD " ]
ahh...yes..i saw her after school. She looked really down ...i didn't knwo what to do! i didn't know how i could make things better for her. she said she's falling behind in Physics class. ...now how could i possibly help in that situation?
i don't know! that's what gets me...i try to come up with something...anything...but i just...can never make the situation any better. I'm sorry bhe! :(
i didn't have much time to stay and be with her because i had practice at 3:00 with everybody at jesse's. Unfortunately she was in there UNTIL three XD. i was hoping she'd get out earlier. *sigh* ...i guess it couldn't be helped.
she gave me a letter and she just left~... :(
...i wanted to kiss her!!! God the urge i had! [ okie enough about that ]
i had to rush to Jesse's. but before that i had to return some videos to the library because they were going to be due the next day and i didn't want to have to bother with it.
i was going to check oout some movies for her...but decided not to.
[ i was moody now ]

At Jesse's we practiced our set 4 times
the set?
-Endless
-Arsonist the Forgiver
& -Another Love Lost

we were only allowed to play 3 songs so yeah.
after that Julian and Jesse loaded the stuff into the van and Me Israel and Luis went walking from there. because we wouldn't all fit in the van.

and uhhm.
yeah we laughed and told jokes on our way to the school.
when we got to the school i realized that "she" might just be in the band room or something.
so i told Luis and Israel i wanted to see her. they were like "no! ur going to ditch us again!" but i didn't intend to. she wouldn't ditch with me anywhere because what she does is real impotant for her. and plus i had a show to perform at.
when i saw her she looked...tired? rushed? i don't know...but in an instant she was gone and that was it.
then i went to the drama building and we unloaded all the stuff.
we soud checked and we sat down on the little chairs.

the place was really nice. it had alot of chairs and tables with candles lit up and it was just greaT.
i kept thinking about her...
...and that one song from Beck "Full Moon Sways"
i don't know why... lol

anyways...
...as i sat on that candle lit table i saw bands perforn and skits as well. and yeah.

i was beginnnig to feel the pressure of being on the stage. my heart was beating soo fast and hard i could swear it was moving m necklace.


i remember i saw her ...she was outside...damn i pushed aside a lot of people! lol.
when i saw her we smiled at each other. and talked a little....maan..what i was feeling at the moment was intense. my heart was beating even harder...i man i was soo Happy! just hugging her game me "electricity" lol...but...before i even knew it...she was gone.
[ did she say bye? i don't remember...did i tell her good night? did i tell her that i loved her? why don't i remember?!..."]

i was a little upset...i was sad...but i had to hide the way i was feeling. i didn't want to affect others around me...or my performance. i had to put my feelings aside.

when it was our turn we quickly set up and made sure everything was ready. we fixed what little probles we had..then it was show-time.

{ Hope Once Died Performance }
The moment the cuitains opened i kinda froze...i was shocked a little. but the feeling subsided. we played our hearts out and everything went well. we moved like crazy on stage...well..most of the time....and umm..everything went better than expected. after that some other band played and we were done.
everything was done. thats all
that concludes everything

[ originally i had written in specific detail aboout everything...it was MUCH longer...but it got deleted somehow...so i re wrote evrything! XD just for you.
anyways..i'm leaving now...bye everyone! hopefully Hope Once Died will play for Suhi someday...or perhaps for something else.
bye!
Love you bhe...
:)